So yesterday I posted a cover on my channel for the first time in a long time – volunteering at my old dance school and being surrounded by dancers and performers and singing at the top of my lungs as much as I can has made my really crave performing again. So I wanted to film a cover – something nice and simple to start off with and hopefully working up to something bigger when I’ve trained my voice up again.
Do I want anything from this cover video? No, not really, I just enjoy performing and right now YouTube is the only platform I’ve got. If someone came up to me tomorrow and said hello would you like a career on the West End/a recording contract/being in your dream band would I take it? Yes, probably.
Because I think anyone who has ever been passionate about an element of performing, whether it be dancing, singing, acting or anything in between, will always think about what would have happened if they’d stuck it out, gone to drama school or tried harder at dance class?
That’s not to say that I regret my past decisions – I love the path I’ve taken, the people I’ve met along the way and the career that I’m building for myself, but there’s always going to be that part of me that wonders what could have been and longs for the stage.
In all reality, if someone put me on a stage in front of a few thousand people I’d freeze – I wouldn’t be able to sing, let alone sing well, I probably couldn’t dance for the life of me and I’m not really an actor at the best of times.
It’s all about if, buts and maybes – what if I’d tried? But I don’t really think I could do it. But wouldn’t it be fun? But it would be scary! And so on and so on.
It’s a weird position to be in, because I don’t want anything from it but I think about it a lot.
So what’s the point of this blog post? I’m not sure, mostly to get this feeling down in words because it’s something I’ve kind of thought about since a friend who was auditioning for dance school when we were 9 or 10 said that I should audition with her and I didn’t even bother asking my parents because I knew they’d say no (always fought to be one of those child actors I did, dreamt of being a Disney Channel girl!). When I was that age I always wanted to be a singer or an actress, so going into social media management is a huge curveball to my childhood dreams but what can I say? Everything happens for a reason.
Here’s a link to the video if you wanted to watch it!
Thank you for reading,