Hello,

I know I’ve been a bit absent from this blog – I had a week off, then I posted content really sporadically, then I just disappeared without a trace. I didn’t even turn my computer one for about a week, my boyfriend made a YouTube video for me (which I thoroughly recommend you watch, it’s fab) and I just went offline.

This wasn’t a choice or a decision I consciously made, it just happened. I was commuting into London for my work experience with BBC Three, I suffered a huge loss with my family, I was absolutely exhausted and then everything just got far too much and I know I couldn’t force myself to carry on with everything – so, unfortunately blogging slipped. I wish it hadn’t – I love writing, even writing this post now makes me feel so good to just be typing and the words flow so freely from my fingertips but at this time of loss and exhaustion, I couldn’t bring myself to think of the words.

And I know now that I did too much – last Tuesday I had a mild breakdown because I was trying to carry on with life as normal but I’ve not had a day with no plans for so long and I’m not going to have one for weeks, but I need to slow down and limit how much I’m making myself do because I can’t keep up. Even now I can feel my eyes ache because I’m still so tired.

I am working on it though – today I had my Lifestyle PR class, my music journalism class, I’m writing this post, I’m going to play MarioKart at uni and I’m going to go for a late night shopping trip with my favourite guys later. I’m not going to force myself to do any more than that because I will overwork myself. Every day in my diary is like this now – I have a lot going on but I’m not letting myself do too much. I’m trying to look after myself.

I have planned to write a post about grief and what’s really been going on in a week or two but it’s too soon right now. I’ve planned posts for this week and I’ve planned time to write them and get everything done but I may adapt this if I need to.

Would you like me to do a kind of ‘self help’-esque post about how I handle my mental health? It’s not professional or medically assisted in any way but it’s therapeutic for me and if it could help someone it would be totally worth it.

Thank you for reading,

Sophie xx

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