Today’s been an odd day, kind of reflective and nostalgic in a sad way. Whilst I’m home for Christmas I have to sort through my bedroom and my belongings at home to decide what I want to keep when my dad moves house.
My parents told me they were separating a couple of months ago and I’ve not really wanted to talk about it because it’s their ‘story’ (I guess if you want to call it that) and I didn’t want anyone to think I was talking about it to get views. So I’m not really going to talk about it now.
But they are selling the house that I’ve lived in for the last 18 years and it’s a weird feeling that this might be the last time I ever see my room; my house; where I grew up.
My room hasn’t felt like my room for a while anyway because I took down my wall of stuff and my dad moved stuff around and most of my things are in Southampton anyway, so in theory the fact that they’re selling the house shouldn’t bother me too much but it does.
It does because whenever I come back from university, I won’t be coming ‘home’ – I won’t be coming back to somewhere familiar, where I know where the plates are and how to work the oven. Arguably, ‘home’ is about the people you’re with but a familiar environment makes me feel safe, which is why I”m starting to call Southampton home.
When I do come back I won’t be coming back to a ‘home’ – where my mum and dad will be living will be just houses to me and, to be honest, that’s part of the reason I have no plans to come back to my home town in the next semester at uni. My dad and my mum have separate plans to come to visit me and I’m hoping to get a job in January so if I can stay in Southampton over half term I can earn more money.
I’m hoping to spend quite a lot of time travelling next Summer so whilst I will see my family, I don’t know how long I’ll really be spending around here. I don’t really know what’s going to happen in the next year.
But it’ll be fine – it’ll be nice to see my parents starting the next chapter of their lives and I can’t wait to plan trips abroad to see more of the beautiful world we live in.
On a cheerier note, I uploaded a new video to my YouTube channel today, talking about what I did over Christmas and my plans for YouTube next year!
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