As I’ve mentioned a lot recently – I finish school this week. I have my last days of full lessons and timetables and teaching and move onto about five weeks of exams and revision, one ‘book return’ day (to give back all my textbooks) and results day and I never have to go into my school again.
I’ve been thinking about this a lot, because I hate going to school right now – getting out of bed in the morning is difficult and it’s not unusual to get home from school in the afternoon and cry; but I don’t hate school itself.
I love learning, I have good relationships with most of my teachers and I like the school environment because it’s structured and somewhat restricted – without school I get really lazy, I generally don’t get out of bed and I spend all day moping and not doing anything so school helps me be much more productive. But that doesn’t make school any easier to bear at the moment.
I don’t want to say it’s the people, because I do have a good set of friends that try to involve me in what they’re doing, and I’m so affectionate about my English Literature class that organising presents for our teachers has been one of the highlights of my week (alongside New City Kings inviting me to their concert).
I think what I hate about school is that I’m so tired and I don’t have room to breathe – I can’t relax because I feel like I should spend every waking minute revising and I can’t do that, which stresses me out more. I’m very stressed and I can’t enjoy school when I feel so pressured by it.
But I really do love my lit class and we took some really fun group pictures in one of our last lessons last week, so I thought this would be as good an opportunity as any to share them.
I’m getting somewhat nostalgic, I guess, but I’m more than ready to leave school.
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